Hi!

          Right now, I'm about to make my first ever report in college and I feel so anxious. So, before continuing it, I'll let some thoughts go.

          Your girl is finally in college. After the 2 years of delay cause of the K-12 program, I'm finally in college. I have known that this is faaaaaaaar from high school that's why the 4 months break from the academe was a much needed one. Seeing my friends struggle with their first two months woke me up more. College would really have a big impact in my profession, in my life in the succeeding years. I dont want to take it for granted, I want to work myself up for myself and for my family.

          Im quite happy and I feel so accomplished knowing that I settled my college documents on my own (not bothering or getting any help from my parents). I have never done it before, I have never appreciated the gift of the not-so-hassle process in enrolling myself in high school. OH! especially the enrollment. It was so tiring and hassle hassle hassle. But who am I to complain? --btw, I got in in a state university which means i have free tuition-- I am more than blessed to be in it. So yeah, basically I earned myself some good friends through the process. The experience was so worth it! If you really want to pursue it, you gotta work hard for it. Be patient!!

          First week, second week. I met my classmates. I can say that the atmosphere in our room is so strong in a sense that I can feel it and I know that everyone are good in academics and other skills. And yes, its true. We came from different places, different schools with different practices, beliefs, and personalities. But every aspect of it is so strong. 

          I am afraid. I am afraid that all of these insecurities, lapses, and flaws will eat me alive while trying to co-exist with them to learn and prosper as an individual. I have never felt so unprepared and unsure of what I know and what I have in the matter of being a student. And I guess, I should really double my effort in order to catch up and do well. Why? cause I know that this is not the time to give up, not now that I'm almost there. 

          Last Feast, I was reminded that I am not alone. I was never alone for God is with me. People may turn their backs on, but He will never do that to me. God believes in me, God chose this path for me for He know that I can do it. With Him. So, I'm doubling my work and I'm lifting the rest up to Him. I'll do the "cans" and God will do the "can'ts". 

         Lets live with our purpose and calling. Lets live with and for Him.

         love,
         Raice of 08/17/18